down-hearted

yes. again!

today is one of the days when i just sleep, cannot press myself into any action, and hardly resist crying.

i thought this terrible state of mind wouldnt come anytime soon. i was mistaken.

it has been two weeks and three days. but i feel like shit. exactly the same feeling i was overwhelmed by during the first three days...

i cannot pretend im okay when im not....

i had a great weekend, and tried hard to stay positive...

i failed.

i cant even imagine i would go to znojmo as im supposed to. i dont know what to do.

not in a mood to see all the happy people and act in a way that wont annoy them. 

i know im not able to keep the spirit up. 

seems impossible.

btw. i was at my dentist yesterday. i spent there an entire hour :-D 

at least its painless or otherwise i would die. thank god he takes such a good care of me.

even tho it costs me a fortune :-D

i miss him..!