this is ridiculous

i dunno whats happening
but im seriously going crazy.
i think about him...
every single day.
every one!
this is not normal.
not good at all.
i miss it
i miss it all.
feel like i need to see him.
but thats bullshit
i know.
but cannot resist.
gettin weak.

so im thinking why this is happening. maybe because im lately stressed too much..?
the school stuff is just unbearable.
there are only two weeks left till the end of school.
and so much work to do.
i cannot sleep. or better, i would sleep cuz im tired as hell but i just need to work, work and work.
getting frustrated.
i need to get wasted. and i mean it.
but cant. cuz sure, i am working the whole weekend. and on top of that friday as well.
we also have a christmas party from work on saturday.
should i go or not?
i have a presentation and test on monday. need to get working on the corpus presentation. need to answer the case studies, write another essay. study for the banking test. do the bachelor thesis stuff for the seminar. and of course, read a fucking 200 page book for literature in film.
hopefully, there will be no exam in british satire. cuz its for sure we wont get away with one in irish literature.
geez. i need a day to be like hundred and fifty hours. could be more, i wouldnt mind.
dont know how ill get up tomorrow... and the days after...
hate it!
and my legs hurt so much!
fucking cramps in calfs. cannot get rid of them. it does hurt! really!

and hes still in my fucking head.
fuck!