last couple days

okay, it has been tough lately... tougher than i thought it would be. but thank god i have some awesome friends that are getting me through it.
i also learned how hard it is to get a stopper out of a bottle. one should know that. and drink the whole bottle of wine is funny (if we refuse to use the word desperate, because honestly, it is a desperate action).
i got my nail polished, which was cool, and spend some quality time with the girls.
what happened next was extremely hurting. it was like getting stab right into my heart. but as he said, it must have been done. althought im sure there were many different ways how to do it.
monday was a party day. well, it actually started with: i dont know if i wanna get drunk again...
but hanca was the best: i have a credit test at 8 am, ill have just one beer.
there wasnt a one beer.
there was one after another. and whose idea was it to get tequillas?? nope, dont say it was mine.
we danced! and it was absolutely great!! i loved it!
mm... the toilet scene. it was hilarious. have no idea why we did it but whatever..
we seriously stole 17 shots. i dont understand how we did it. we were just ordering new shots without returning the old ones... i was laughing so hard when taking them out of the bag in the morning.
sure the night ended by me being sick, but as i said a couple times, i needed that. and the way home? rather no comment, lol.
the weather on tuesday exactly expressed my mood. quite nice during the day and then a huge storm came. just like this. i have it the same, being quite okay and then the sudden break down.
yesterday was surprisingly terrible. dont even ask why.
i seriously cant take this anymore. i thought i could handle this. i cant.
being getting rid of like this is bad.
thinking i made a mistake is chasing me down... have you ever found out you love someone but hate them at the same time? hate them for what they are doing to you? how they make everything much tougher?
crazy feeling. and i cant do anything about it.
well, wish me luck to get over it soon. or to solve it somehow. i dont know..
gettin drunk on saturday. wohoo, paulits birthday!
sleep, sleep, right now!